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[16 Jan 2005|04:07pm] |
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I haven't written here in forever, but I'm procrastinating from packing. I can't believe winter break is over. I'm back at school tomorrow, and classes start on Tuesday. This time leaving for school is really sad. When I went to start in fall it was exciting, but now I'm just thinking of what I'm going to miss at home. Not that I don't like school though. I just feel torn between these two distinct places, and I go between them so often I kind of feel like I don't really belong in either. It was just nice to have one little world to live in for a month. I don't think I would want to go between them less though. If I lived at school for months without coming home I know I would be depressed. I absolutely need them both. I'm just not ready yet.
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[17 Nov 2004|12:15am] |
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dyed my hair red. felt like a change i guess. i can't believe the semester's almost over. time does fly. i get to register for classes before all the freshmen on the sophomores' day because i have more credits or something, which is much better than last time when i was practically the last person in the whole school to register for classes. now which ones to take??
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[11 Nov 2004|12:23am] |
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Yay! I have a job on Friday night. I'm excited to have some money come in because lately it's been flowing out like crazy, and that always makes me nervous. In addition to that, they asked me to bring more people for the first time, so I get to give my friends jobs as well. Yay for that! On another note, getting a prospie tomorrow night. I hope she's cool.
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[09 Nov 2004|01:33am] |
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Today I participated in some scientific research study and got paid a whole $10 for the hour in which I allowed them to use me as a guinea pig. Good stuff. Had an awesome weekend at home. Spent lots of time with Martin, and it was perfect as usual. Now back at school...
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[02 Nov 2004|12:09am] |
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My dorm building caught on fire tonight after someone left the oven on for too long. All these fir trucks came, and the parking lot became a freshman class social arena. Now we're all back in the building, and it smells like smoke and burnt pumpkin seeds.
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[25 Oct 2004|09:19pm] |
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Went home for the weekend because I needed it badly even though I went to San Francisco last week for fall break, and that should have been enough of a break in itself. Somehow it just wasn't, although Nicole's house was awesome. Her family is great. Martin and I were extremely pampered there. So anyways, I went home this weekend and saw my grandparents. Saw my family a couple times which actually is nice now. I've come to like going home. It makes such a difference not living there. I have such a good time at home now because there are no rules, I have no responsibilities, and I'm totally catered to. I also got to spend lots of time at Martin's, and he was absolutely wonderful as usual. I must ssay he makes amazing penne and meat sauce. Overall it was a really nice little vacation. Now back to school.... I wish someone would come visit me because I feel like having a visitor.
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[07 Oct 2004|11:04pm] |
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Yay the last two days seriously felt like the weekend. Martin decided to come visit me at 3:00 am on Wed. morning. He stayed until this morning, and I thorougly enjoyed having him. It was so perfect. I'm sad that he's gone now, but we're going to San Francisco next weekend to stay at my roommate Nicole's house. We have become like the three Musketeers. We have a blast together. It's awesome. So tonight I saw Erin Brockovich speak at Scripps. It was interesting. Glad I went. Then went to the gym for a while. Trying to make an effort to keep in shape sort of. Now it's off to find out what's going on tonight.
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[04 Oct 2004|02:41pm] |
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my roommate is the best roommate ever! she knew i really wanted to get mail so she secretly sent me a care package full of candy and a cute little note in a big box. it was sooo sweet of her to do. wow she's just so thoughtful it blows me away.
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[20 Sep 2004|02:54pm] |
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I guesss it's just starting to hit me just how removed from the rest of the world I am. I haven't seen tv or read a newspaper or magazine in a month, which may not necessarily be a bad thing, but it's weird. I feel like no one outside of my school and Martin really know I even exist anymore because no one has contacted me since I moved. Now Tony and Becca are gone and they were the only ones who made any effort to see me again. I wish I was more outgoing, and I wish I made more of an effort to meet people. I'm feeling out of the loop. I like it here but I don't feel like I quite fit. Everyone else came from such different backgrounds that they all relate to and I don't. I am learning a lot about other places and other people's lives though which is interesting to me. I just wish I could find my place already.
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[19 Sep 2004|02:52am] |
Why do I feel like every weekend is another weekend wasted?
i need to get out more.
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| Home for the weekend |
[18 Sep 2004|11:26pm] |
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Came home yesterday to do part of my girl scout gold award project today and decided to stay for the evening to visit with the family. I'm leaving tomorrow morning but I'll be back again next Thursday for the same thing and then the Thursday after that. I think my relationship with my parents has greatly improved since I moved out, and I'm so glad for it.
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[05 Sep 2004|11:41pm] |
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I have been at school for over a week now, and I just got my computer so finally I get online again. Yay! Oh and by the way I love my school!
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| 5 days left of summer... |
[08 Aug 2004|04:11pm] |
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Does anyone want to go to the beach with me on Sunday? Let me know if you do. I want to go one last time before I leave.
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| 11 days left of summer... |
[08 Aug 2004|04:11pm] |
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Ew some creepy guy keeps calling me and I don't know who he is or how to make him stop. It's so weird and scary. Says his name is Jeremy.. I don't know how I know him or how he got my number but this is really annoying. On a better note, started cleaning my room to get things organized for moving. Hopefully I'm working this week cuz some money would be nice seeing as how I just did major spending on clothes. I wish Tony was home. Incubus on Wednesday. I'm beginning to wonder how this saying goodbye thing is going to work. I guess I won't be seeing anyone really before they leave or i leave because we haven't really made plans. It all seems so final. Such a strange feeling.
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| 12 days left of summer... |
[08 Aug 2004|04:11pm] |
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and i am getting awfully nervous. I'm so excited to move but so scared at the same time. I had a horrible dream about orientation in which I made no friends and had to sleep in a room of like eight people without any beds or furniture. I guess I have college on my mind. I know that for the first month I'm going to be coming home at least one day a week because of prior made plans and a project I need to finish, but I'm getting worried that because of that I'm going to miss out on a lot and I won't meet anyone. I hope not. I want to start packing now but I know I still have time, and this in between period is killing me.
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[08 Aug 2004|04:11pm] |
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Wow so it just hit me that the end of summer is drawing near. I don't know how that should make me feel. I feel like I should start trying harder to accomplish as much as possible before I run out of all this free time, but I'm lazy as hell. All I can think about right now is how much I want to go shopping, and how much I know I shouldn't give in to that craving because I'm trying to save money. I hope I get a call for work soon cuz then I wouldn't feel so guilty.
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| Finally got more work |
[23 Jul 2004|11:56am] |
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So I got a job for Monday which is wonderful, but I have a 4 a.m. call time which means I need to leave my house at 3. Now that's absolutely ridiculous. Oh well I'm hoping it's at the beach or somewhere else scenic if I'm going to be there for sunrise. On another note, I went to the gym with Ellen today and it was really fun. I'm thinking I should join a gym just for the next month, but I really only want it for classes because I think otherwise i owuldn't be motivated. I probably would need someone to go with also because I'm so unmotivated. Well we'll see. I could always just wait until school starts.
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| Getting closer to college... |
[23 Jul 2004|11:56am] |
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So I think I'm almost done buying everything I want for my dorm room now. I can't wait to move in because it means moving out of my house. Soo excited to get out of here. Every time I have to do something for my parents or brothers or have to listen to someone yelling at someone else in my house I think to myself... it will all be over soon. I found out my roommate's name and where she's from. Her name is Nicole and she's from San Francisco. I hope we get along. I'm excited to meet her but scared at the same time because I have always hated the idea of sharing a room with someone. Well it has to be better than living at home I guess.
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| AHHH!!! |
[08 Jul 2004|11:45am] |
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So for school we need medical forms filled out and so my mother decided it would be a good opportunity to get me a physical. This is awful because I absolutely hate doctors. I do not want anyone touching me or poking at me with sharp, cold objects. They're going to take blood and give me some shot, and it's scaring the shit out of me. I think if I went to hell it would be a doctor's office. I wish they could just fill out the forms and send me on my way without doing anything to me. my stomach is in knots just thinking about it. man this sucks!
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| My Birthday |
[06 Jul 2004|09:20pm] |
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So I spent my birthday day in Santa Barbara with my family and did some shopping. Then I came back to the valley and Tony and I went to Martin's house for a while. I'm glad I got to hang out with them on my birthday. Then yesterday Martin suprised me with Disneyland which was really exciting. I love that place. I had an awesome day, and the best part was getting to spend so much time with Martin. Thank you sweetheart!
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